Recently, I was talking with a dear friend, Dr. Flo. I hadn’t spoken with her since testing positive for COVID-19. I shared my challenges in testing positive. I shared I was initially discouraged about being sick but then realized I was blessed. Blessed to be free. Blessed to have the loving support of a wonderful life partner and friends and family. Blessed to see things and life clearer. Blessed to not have them damn medical bills (right). I understand better who and what is important. She asked if I felt my life had gotten stale? I immediately said no that’s not where I was but that wasn’t what my mother called “…the God’s honest truth…’ Yes, my life was in a funk.
John 8:32
“…Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free…”
This funk I caused. I caused it by trusting in man and not in God. I caused it by embracing in my head but not in my heart the Gift of My Faults. I caused this funk not living by the principle “…you can’t teach what you don’t know, and you can’t lead where you’re not willing to go…” The real virus I had to overcome was carrying the American baggage of victimization. With hundreds of thousands of people perishing from COVID-19, God’s sparing my black ass showed me the power of His Unconditional Love.
Dr. Jimmy Jarvis, my Recovery Sponsor, said to me upon hearing how I’m feeling these days “…sounds like you have a new lease on life Bro and with better terms…” Being sick with COVID, and receiving God’s Unconditional Love, reminded me of a question from the movie ‘Harriet.’ As she grieved the betrayal of an unfaithful husband, the question posed to her was “…what is any man to a woman whose life has been touched by God?”
Back to Dr. Flo. She also said to me “…who needs anybody or anything to second it when the Universe has affirmed your life matters…” Righteous. Whatever brought COVID-19 my way, I thank God. It caused me to look in the mirror. It caused me to see the funk I was in. I saw the thief who was looking back at me and stole my joy by trusting more in man than in God. Whatever brought COVID my way, it reaffirmed for me my God’s Unconditional Love. And as the good Dr. said, I don’t need anybody or anything to second God’s affirmation my damn life matters!!
The Hunter
Read more about Dr. Flo and Dr. Jimmy Jarvis and listen to their podcast with me on wreckedamerica.com. They are all that.
The Struggle Continues…
