Stacy is 37-year-old mother of three small children and a Sales Manager for a local car dealership. Her presence In These Rooms is court mandated after receiving her second DWI in the last 13months. Stacy and her husband are in counseling after he served her with divorce papers and threatened to divorce her and take custody of their children. The Car Dealership has taken her off the floor for 90 days without pay and required her to get and come back clean or be terminated. She’s been coming In These Rooms for just over a month with the goal of completing 90 meetings in 90 days. Stacy stated in her share this morning
“…I came in here to get sober but I had a Psychic Change…”
An old man was walking home late one night when he saw a friend on his knees under a streetlight, searching for something. “What are you doing?” he asked his friend.
“…I dropped the key to my house…”
“…I’ll help you look…” his friend replied.
After a few minutes of frustrated searching, the old man asked, “…Where exactly where you when you dropped this key?”
His friend pointed toward the darkness. “…Over there….”
“…Then why are you looking for it here?”
“…Because this is where the light is…”
Psychic Change is often understood as moving into, walking in and even staying in the light. I call this making the move from good to bad or sick to well. The following are different perspectives on Psychic Change.
“…Yea, the light is cool but some of the best shit that adds meaning and value to our stories, and our lives, goes down in the dark…”
Hunter
“…Psychic Change for me has been finding even humor in the pain of my past. Psychic Change isn’t easy. I have not mastered it. Though I have found even humor in the shit of my past, I haven’t fucking forgiven anyone for the shit they did to me. I have come to understand what people meant for harm or bad to me, my High Power is able to help me find meaning in for my good and the good of others. For me, Psychic Change is understanding the worst thing that ever happened to me was seeing myself as others see me instead of how God sees me. I call this “…paying the cost of trying to be good instead of being authentic…” Real talk, fuck comedy, that shit ain’t funny…”
Yalie
“…Psychic Change is seeing the world and people thru a different set of glasses, a better set and a more beautiful set. Psychic Change is choosing to see the world and people not as they are but as God would have them, wants them to be and created them to be. I do not do this perfectly. I do not think any of us do. Psychic Charge is not something that happened or happens to us. Psychic Change is something that is happening to us and in us when we are being who God created us to be, doing what God wants us to do to make of this a better world and, when we allow His Grace and Mercy to make of our feeble efforts miraculous and wonderful changes that are seemingly greater than anything we could ask or imagine…”
The Professor
“…Psychic Change is the power for me found in the valleys of life. I’ve never been to Las Vegas. I’m often asked is that because I have a problem with gambling. I answer “…Hell no. I gamble every day with my in real time. I don’t need the cheap fuckin thrills found in casinos…”
I walk on the dark side and thru the valleys every day and take pride in the strength I’ve found in walking thru them. I like walking on the dark side and in the valleys because here I feel at home. It is here I’m reminded we are all fallen, flawed and fallible. We all have our demons. We are all trying to get home the best fucking way we know how. This is Psychic Change for me…”
Hunter
Psychic Change doesn’t have to or need to be a just a matter of who I am, what I am or the shit I’ve done. Psychic Change can be a matter of whose I am and what is purposed for me. This form of Psychic Change ain’t found in the fucking light. This form of Psychic Change is understanding he led me to it in order to lead me thru it to be a blessing to someone else. This form of Psychic Change is understanding the one who made us don’t make junk and the darkness of our lives can be our mess for His Message.
Step 2 of the Big Book In These Rooms says “…Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity…” My Psychic Change is belief in a God that has shown me His power is as powerful in the dark as the light. It is said “God works both side of the street and down the fucking middle…” My Psychic Change is believing in a God that can show up wearing a really ugly outfit. This God can make a straight lick with a crooked stick. I know because I resemble that remark. This God has shown me He is all that. Psychic Change for me is finding the courage to walk in this understanding. That’s the courage of the Biblical Character Job who said “…Though He Slay me, yet shall I serve Him…” This is my fuckin Psychic Change.
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The Struggle Continues….
